{"id":16393,"date":"2020-09-19T16:01:00","date_gmt":"2020-09-19T06:01:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mag.atomicmusic.space\/?p=16393"},"modified":"2020-09-19T16:01:00","modified_gmt":"2020-09-19T06:01:00","slug":"feeling-like-yourself-instead-of-acting-like-yourself","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/radio.atomicmusic.space\/index.php\/2020\/09\/19\/feeling-like-yourself-instead-of-acting-like-yourself\/","title":{"rendered":"Feeling like yourself instead of \u201cacting like yourself\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

I distinctly remember a moment about a month ago.\u00a0 I was hanging out with someone I\u2019d only crossed paths within the last 6 months and I randomly started singing poorly.\u00a0 They looked at me with eyes wide and went \u201cWhat was that?\u201d<\/em>.\u00a0 I remember being confused and said \u201cOh my singing outbursts,\u00a0 I do that a lot and by the way you\u2019re welcome\u201d.(and laughed)\u00a0 Afterwards it dawned on me, I hadn\u2019t been doing it A LOT or at all for that matter. I hadn\u2019t sung or randomly popped out a dance move\u00a0in so long that one of my distinct traits had never been witnessed by this individual. \u00a0 What a profound slap of realisation in the face.\u00a0 That even though I thought I\u2019d been doing well to be acting chirpy previously, there were some very distinct missing pieces to my usual repertoire.\u00a0 I\u2019d not only been kidding others I\u2019d been kidding myself.\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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It\u2019s a\nvery strange feeling to put yourself out there and be patted on the back for\nsharing how you feel. <\/strong>When I wrote that article I felt like that\nwas old news, I\u2019d squared away so then to have people open up and acknowledge\nit, it made me feel like maybe it was still a bit more real than I\u2019d given it\ncredit.  The same way I can fool others, I can sometimes fool myself\n(academy award is only a matter of time).  <\/strong>I\u2019m incredibly grateful for\neveryone who reached out and equally happy to have been able to open a dialogue\naround mental health.  With that comes a sense of responsibility to\ncontinue to share, another feeling of pressure but one I\u2019ll get over. This week\nhas been tough actually.  <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

After last week’s ConfessionMel I feel like it\u2019s important to give\nsome context to what was going on at the time.  This was a reflective\npiece.  That back at this point in time, I was NOT OK I knew I had to\nlevel up. ME. It was on ME. You must want and seek help and be ready to be able\nto get yourself out of a funk. You need good people around you, paid or unpaid\nbut you have to put the work in.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I had to put the work in. I still have more work to do. I\u2019m\nfeeling more and more like me, instead of acting like me.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

You know when you\u2019re doing your bronze medallion at high\nschool and the teachers tell you must tread water and keep your head above\nwater. Well, turns out if you just tread water for hours at some point, you\u2019ll\nget waterlogged, struggle hard and potentially drown. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Treading water is an effective technique short term to keep\nyour head above water to survive. At some point though if you can\u2019t swim,\nyou\u2019re going to get stuck and suffer. It starts by maybe your head dropping\nbeneath the water and getting a mouthful in your lungs, it hurts and makes it\nhard to breathe. You keep treading trying hard to stabilise yourself, until you\ndrop under again, swallowing more water. There is only so much you can take in\nbefore it does you in and you can\u2019t get your head above again. Same token if\nyou don\u2019t grab onto that rope someone throws you, you can\u2019t then blame someone\nelse for you drowning. You also can\u2019t expect someone to be there always to\nthrow you that rope. You need to learn to swim eventually.  To save yourself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I hoped by sharing I would help to create awareness around\ndiffering perceptions of what mental health can look like. That video\nregardless of how I felt at the time was very true to character, what I did\nwith that Mexican crossing was very true to my usual traits.  I don\u2019t want everyone to run on the\nassumption that if you see someone running around being an idiot and laughing\nis crying out for help.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Our lives are a work in progress. Curve balls are thrown\nconstantly, some may hit us and leave a mark, and some of those balls may\nconnect with something or cause a bit more damage.  If one of those curve balls keeps tapping or\nhitting on the same spot. Almost like a getting a corky at footy, but this one\nis on your brain and you can\u2019t see it. \nSimilarly, if you don\u2019t take the appropriate steps to look after it\nyou\u2019ll end up back on the field with a big tender lump of scar tissue that is\nway more susceptible to get reinjured and take you off the field again quite\nquickly.  But had you taken the time to\nrehab properly in the first place, you\u2019re in with much more of a fighting\nchance.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

By putting in the work, same as with skills training at\nfooty we are better equipped at catching those balls and throwing them back.\nSometimes regardless of the training put in we drop the ball and maybe miss the\ngoal. That\u2019s ok. It\u2019s important to be aware that we don\u2019t and won\u2019t necessarily\nget a perfect run, it might be the umpires against us, the conditions or one of\nmany other things are not favourable. We can\u2019t control everything. We can only\ncontrol what we can control.  Failure to\nprepare is preparing to fail. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mental health can be a bit like an old injury.  Sometimes you don\u2019t realise that you are\nfailing to prepare because your brain is already clouded by fog or you\u2019ve been\nfeeling good for a while, so you forget and get complacent about putting the\nwork in.  You can\u2019t not play footy for a\nwhile, take the field and be just as amazing as you were without some upkeep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Same with physical injuries it\u2019s important to seek knowledge\nand support BUT it\u2019s on you, not anyone else, to put the work in.<\/em><\/strong> You\nmust use those resources and knowledge. If it was a big corky and you want to\nlook after it, you may need to get up every few hours and ice it. I knew I\nneeded to change things, because I kept re-injuring myself metaphorically, the\nmore I pushed through, the worse the injury would get and then it would get to\nthe point where I couldn\u2019t take the field. I was doing things that helped me\ntake the field, but I wasn\u2019t really being a great player on it. I was maybe\nfilling space. Not contributing heavily but I was there. I was running through\nthe motions, on autopilot. To a degree this works. But you won\u2019t be winning\ngrand finals with a team if you have a load of passengers along for the ride.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Also, all injuries don\u2019t heal the same. Some take longer,\nsome take different techniques, you need to keep trying to find the right one\nfor you. There is no quick Band-Aid fix with mental health.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Take a deep breath and fill your lungs with the motivation\nthey need to keep progressing along, continuing to \u201cFeel more like\nyourself instead of just acting like yourself\u201d<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

You may lose a few battles but the war is there to be won.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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