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<\/figure>\n\n\n\n\u201cFor some\nreason when I was in town or at group gatherings. You were on your best\nbehaviour then.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYou knew\nwhat was right and wrong you just pushed the boundaries and limitations to the\nupmost degree\u201d. I still do this. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
At my last\njob interview I was asked if I like rules.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I said,\n\u201cNot really. I like my rules. I\u2019ll play the game until I know it. Then I\u2019ll work\nout which rules are necessary, what are advisory only, and apply accordingly.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I would cry\nand if Mum and Dad didn\u2019t bring the cat in quick enough I\u2019d projectile vomit\nacross the room.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I was\ntalking and running at 9 months and I don\u2019t think I\u2019ve had a rest since.\nNeither has my mum according to her. The only positives I see out of having\noperations when I\u2019ve been sick is a forced induced sleep. There isn\u2019t\nanxiousness behind it, it\u2019s more finally I\u2019m going to get some rest.<\/p>\n\n\n\n When I was\nabout 2, I disappeared. Mum found me outside sitting underneath my pony leaning\nback against its legs as a back rest. I\nhad my blue heeler dog underneath with me, I\u2019d pulled her mouth open like a\nlion and had pulled her tongue right out to inspect what was in her mouth. I\nhave this unbridled curiosity that knows no limitation. Can you imagine finding\nyour small child like that and immediately knowing all the danger she was in? <\/p>\n\n\n\n My Mum has\na fear of razors and blades because she found me once with a razor in my mouth.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sometimes I\noperate completely on impulse. Other times I am rendered almost completely\nparalysed and useless because I overthink everything to the extreme.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Everything\nI do, I analyse. I\u2019m my biggest critique because my brain is on a constant loop\nof different perspectives. How, What, Why?<\/p>\n\n\n\n My brain is\nthree steps ahead of where my mouth is. While people are comprehending one\nthing I\u2019ve done or said. I\u2019ve moved on to the next thought process. You know\nwhen a toddler keeps asking questions? They question everything. It\u2019s so\nannoying. That\u2019s me in adult life. It\u2019s not because I don\u2019t respect what\nsomeone says. I just want to know more.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I always\nwanted to help Dad growing up, I love being outside and physically doing\nthings. When I got to go, I\u2019d pepper him with questions and want to know why we\nwere doing something one way and could we do it better another. I always wanted\nto try everything. Sometimes when I\u2019d ask Dad, \u201cCan I help?\u201d Depending on the\nday, an answer I\u2019d get was, \u201cNot now, I\u2019m in a hurry.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n I can\u2019t\njust do things without context. I need reason for everything, unless of course\nI\u2019m working on impulse. Then there is no reason. Until after. When I piece\ntogether the thought process.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I have some\nfriends that say they\u2019ve never been so invested in a story only for it to\nchange complete direction and lead them up another nonsensical path. I\u2019ve\nlearnt that my brain connects things differently and seamlessly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n If you find\nme at home, I\u2019ve usually got music playing or something going in the\nbackground. Having noise around me actually quietens the stuff going on in my\nhead. I hate quiet. I usually try to go to sleep with a movie playing in the\nbackground so that I don\u2019t have to pay attention to it, but it\u2019s a background\ndistraction. Even as I\u2019m writing this I\u2019ve got a movie going on in the\nbackground. One that I\u2019ve seen before that I don\u2019t need to be invested in. <\/p>\n\n\n\n I actually\nbought a book about 5 years ago, something on being driven to distraction but I\nstill haven\u2019t been focused enough to sit and read it. When I told this to a\npsychologist friend this year he said he\u2019d never heard such an ADHD statement\never, and he specialises in kids with the condition.<\/p>\n\n\n\n October is\nADHD awareness month. Ironically the month is nearly over and I\u2019ve been too\ndistracted to sit down and write about it. I\u2019ve always known my brain worked\ndifferently. I\u2019ve known, I\u2019m fidgety can\u2019t sit still, intense, talk a lot, I\nget distracted easily and I\u2019m like a bower bird with shiny blue things in front\nof it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n The idea of\ndoing yoga and being quiet was quite possibly the worst possible nightmare for\nme to step into.<\/p>\n\n\n\n My brain doesn\u2019t\nstop. It actually took me two years of\ngoing to yoga almost daily before I was allowed to participate in a relax\nclass. This was because the teacher thought I was too distracting to others and\ndetract from their experience.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019m a deep\nthinker but it often appears as though I\u2019m not paying attention. I have a\ncompletely unique perspective on life which I love, but it\u2019s not always\nunderstood.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019m\nconstantly asking questions and my curiosity can sometimes be too much for\nothers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019m all or\nnothing. Bull at a gate. On or off. <\/p>\n\n\n\n I get\noverwhelmed easily and a lot. Daily in fact. I have so much that comes into my\nbrain and not always an outlet to get it out. I\u2019m often late, but not\nintentionally as I seem to have no comprehension of how long things take a lot\nof the time. Sometimes it because I get distracted it takes me waay longer than\nit should to do even the simplest of tasks. It takes me 15 mins to sit and mind\nnumbingly brush my teeth in the morning. \nFor some reason the thought of doing one thing at a time is too hard.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019m someone\nwith novelty factor. I\u2019m fun and full of energy to be around, but it can wear\nthin and burn out. Even on myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I need to\nmove on the regular. In fact sitting down puts me to sleep or makes my brain\nshut down a bit when I\u2019m trying to concentrate. So usually when people like to\ntake a break at lunch I\u2019d prefer to power through. Once I stop and lose\nmomentum it\u2019s very hard to regain it. Once I gain momentum though. There is no\nstopping me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n It often\nintrigues me how I\u2019ll start talking to someone about something they did and\nthey have no idea what I\u2019m talking about. I just get brain tweaks that link me\ninto different topics.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I work on\nwhat I call the rice cooker method. The\nact of absorption, it doesn\u2019t look like I\u2019m doing anything but I\u2019m absorbing\neverything that comes near me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The best\nway I\u2019ve come up with to describe is my brain is like a messy computer desktop.\nFiles fly in, they get chucked on top of everything else. Nothing is kept in\nfolders or is organised. I just know it\u2019s there somewhere. But I don\u2019t always know where or how to find\nit. Sometimes knowing that so much is there to sift through is enough to stop\nme from doing it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n What\nhappens unexpectedly next is like when you run your mouse over the screen and\nthen click something randomly. This sets\noff a chain reaction of hyperlinks. The information that comes out is fast and\nlinked in a series of somewhat nonsensical ways to others but makes complete\nsense to me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n As if it was\na computer server operating with codes behind the scenes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n So Ferrari\nBrain with Bicycle Brakes\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n What is it?<\/p>\n\n\n\n You have a\nturbo charged mind. Like a Ferrari\nengine, but with the brakes of a bicycle. A brain like this is very powerful\nbut without brakes strong enough, you might race through places where you mean\nto stop, or ignore instructions you mean to hear.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The\nneurological underpinning of ADHD is a relative state of disinhibition, gives\nrise to three negatively associated symptoms. Distractibility, impulsivity, and\nhyperactivity. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Rather than\nlooking at these things negatively in a child or adult, let\u2019s look at the\npositives because there are a lot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Creativity,\nDifferent Perspective, Persistence, Compassion, Engaging Conversational Skills,\nRomantics, Constant Surprises, A Great sense of Humour, Spontaneous,\nWillingness to take risk, A Strong Sense of Fairness, Ingenuity, Generosity,\nPersonality, Resilience, Hyper focused and Empathetic<\/p>\n\n\n\n Once I\nstarted mentioning that I think I might have ADHD, no one even batted an\neyelid. The most common response was DER! Or yeah but it\u2019s just you. We love\nyou like that. That\u2019s all well and good and I love that my friends accept me.\nI\u2019d just like to be able to harness a few things better.<\/p>\n\n\n\n If we can\nfind ways to strengthen those brakes a bit better, we have a formidable car to\ndrive that will leave the masses behind. A Ferrari is an amazing vehicle but if\nyou can\u2019t stop it at full speed it can be a dangerous thing to have on the road\nunbridled with other traffic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dr Hallowell\ncame up with the Ferrari brain analogy. I love him for that. His understanding\nbehind ADHD is amazing. He says, \u201dI don\u2019t see it as an disorder, I see it as a\ntrait and if it\u2019s managed well. It\u2019s an asset.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Another\nhelpful person is Jessica McCabe. Watch HOW TO ADHD. It\u2019s a very useful tool to\nlisten to someone else that\u2019s real with what\u2019s going on and authentic to\nherself. People respond to that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Kerwin Rae\nhas ADHD and sees it as a gift once harnessed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The funnest\nand most amazing thing I\u2019ve found out about ADHD, people that were in constant\nFight or Flight Mode who act on impulse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Think of\nthe ages when we were hunter gatherers, we are all sitting round a fire trying\nto keep warm. <\/p>\n\n\n\n There is a\nrustle in the bushes, 3 people run into the darkness without thought with their\nspears and kill a sabretooth tiger. \nSaving the tribe. By the time this has happened others are either only\njust noticing what is happening or have been frozen with fear. Everyone\nrejoices then the heroes get to sleep with everyone\u2019s wives as reward. What a life!! \nWithout people who operate on impulse, we might not all be here today to\ncontinue to enjoy it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mic Drop. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Ferrari Brain with Bicycle Brakes for the win.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u201cHave you ever heard of a Ferrari Brain with Bicycle Brakes?\u201d When a guy asked me this I was immediately fascinated by the analogy. I love analogies. I was like \u201cNO, but I love it, what does it mean? \u201c \u201cLook it up.\u201d He said. Reckless and full on. Dennis the Menace the girl version. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":10,"featured_media":19541,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[289,291],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n![\"\"](\"http:\/\/radio.atomicmusic.space\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/10\/20201016_000252-scaled-1-768x1024.jpg\")
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